It’s not because I don’t have any resolutions to make.

It’s not because I am perfect.

It’s certainly not because I lack any self-criticism.

And it’s most definitely not because I can’t be contemplative or even self-loathing at times.

I’m all of the above – and more.

But after years and years of observing my so-called new year’s resolutions become scarcer and almost extinct, followed by years and years of berating myself for not keeping them,  I’ve finally decided that…

…The System is Broken. 

Instead, it’s that I think I’ve finally come to accept myself and my my perceived actual flaws.

 

Get more organized? That’s for someone who has a totally different brain structure than me (you know who you are).

Don’t worry so much? That works really well if you don’t have the worry gene that’s been passed down through the generations. Otherwise, it involves a lot of self-talk (where’s the evidence that the world is going to end/he’s going to get mugged/into an accident/the plane is gonna crash?).

Don’t procrastinate? Sometimes it gives me an adrenalin rush to do things at the last minute and see that they can get done. (Of course, there are life-and-death situations where procrastinating is a definite n0-no. I realize that). 

So long, 2013. I’m sorry I couldn’t accomplish what I promised myself – and you –  I would. But I leave you behind richer in the knowledge that I am not perfect, that I will get to these things when and if the time is right and that having flaws is what makes me alive, complicated, real and more interesting.

Greetings, 2014. Here I am, with a clean slate, ready to embrace my true self … flaws and all. And hopefully, I’ll take what I’ve learned in the past year and use it to make my life better.

Happy New Year to all of you out there – may it be a wonderful year for you!

 

You might also be interested in these posts:

Ways to be miserable http://mysocalledmidlife.net/the-secret-to-being-happy/

25 Things I’ve Learned in 25 Years as a Breast Cancer Survivor http://mysocalledmidlife.net/25-things-i-learned-in-25-years-as-a-breast-cancer-survivor/ 

On Not Procrastinating http://mysocalledmidlife.net/on-not-procrastinating/